I’m sat watching Saturday night telly dressed in my new baby doll nightie. I’d rather be in bed as at least I wouldn’t have to look at myself… clad in a super short satin and lace monstrosity, adorned with ruffles and bows and an equally frilly pair of over knickers covering my nappy… then it’s my long hairless legs. My toes are separated by a pair of foam toe spreaders whilst the shiny pink varnish on my toenails dries. Aunt Katinka sits half watching the TV show as she manicures my fingernails, occasionally laughing or commenting on the celebrity chat show that’s on. I stare blankly at the TV, occasionally glancing at my aunt or my hand and think about what I could have been doing instead of this.