Another deep adjustment changes my perception of who I am and what I am. I fight it hard but there is little left to me to resist with. No please, I’m going to be a lawyer … Don’t take it away from me please … I feel the irresistible adjustment invade me … a momentary feeling of being raped. My entire soul is opened and laid bare. Any adult memory or emotion begins to vanish pleasantly. My very last adult realization before I become a baby girl is that I am never going to be adult again as I feel the adjustment Nana is making intensely in my soul. A really pleasant euphoric release and I suddenly don’t know what a lawyer is or how to be one as a wave of relief and baby innocence fills me. I am purged of all my adult memories. Even my few sexual encounters vanish and I am virgin again. I am a little baby girl and only want to play with my toys.

The anxiety over loosing all the adult things passes quickly and softly as Nana makes another adjustment. I have no more ability to resist any of the things Nana or Vickie want of me and I realize I’m a sweet lovable little baby girl who is shy and innocent. I will always be this way.