That morning, Sally and the kids had stopped at the hospital pharmacy where Sally had asked the pharmacist if they sold the purple diapers used in the hospital rooms.

“Oh, you’re talking about our Molicare briefs. Those are a brand new line of product just on the market this year; the hospital is committed to the best perineal care possible and these briefs are simply outstanding. They are made in Europe so they cost a little more than the stuff you’ll find at Fred Meyer or Walmart, but they also won’t leak or cause rashes nearly as often.”

Jordan had turned bright red.

“Great. I’d like to purchase a couple packages if possible for my daughter here. What size do you suppose she needs?” Sally looked at Jordan and motioned to her with her open hand.

At that Jordan had almost died in shame. Mindi had done a double take and looked directly at her sister’s face for a reaction. Even Jen had noticed that Jordan was embarrassed.

“Wats wwong Jowdeee?” Jen had mouthed.

Frozen, Jordan hadn’t respond.

Sizing up Jordan, the Pharmacist responded, “I think size small would adequate and I think we do have a couple bags available – fourteen come in each.”

“Excellent.”

Leaving the hospital and entering the basement parking lot, Jordan had been made to carry a bag of her own adult diapers – plain as day – no bag or anything. The previous few weeks had been one mortifying experience after enough.

Please don’t see anyone I know, please don’t see anyone I know, Please, Please, Please. She had prayed as they walked.

 

“Ok Jordie, for the next little bit, I’m going to help you get your night diaper on. I think you’ll get the hang of it after a few weeks – but maybe this’ll go away by then. Let’s go in the bathroom tonight though so it doesn’t have to be in front of your new roommate, ok?” Sally motioned for Jordan to get one of her purple diapers from the closet.

“Ok.” She got the hint and struggling with the thick plastic bag, wrestled the first diaper free.

The two entered the bathroom together and as she had become accustomed, the twelve year old handed her mom her diaper and pulled down her skirt and panties. Lying down on the soft bathroom mat, she pulled up her knees and leaned them outward. Sally unwrapped the diaper as she had done the night before and slid it toward Jordan’s rear end.

“Lift up sweetie.”

Jordan obeyed. And once again as she looked toward the ceiling and relaxed, she felt a similar but slightly more clear sense of peaces as what had come to her in the hospital. It was strange but real.

“Ok knees apart a little bit more…hold it right there…you’ve still got some rash going on down there…”. Jumping up Sally scurried back down the hall and Jordan heard her rummaging in a plastic sack. She lay waiting, innocently, helplessly, for her mom to finish taking care of her.

This time, Jordan could see that the over-the-counter tube was labeled “Desitin” and it had a much stronger smell than the stuff her mom had used at the hospital. She immediately recognized it as the same product her sisters had received for years and she also immediately felt relief from the mild burning down below.

“Another day or two and it’ll be taken care of baby – not to worry.” Her mom said sweetly.

With a little more expertise this time, Sally pulled the soft plastic garment into place and snugly taped each of the four blue tapes. Once again, Jordan felt its thickness between her legs. Her mom helped her up and held open sleep shorts for her to step into. The tall girl couldn’t help but waddle her way around the corner to her bedroom in not much more than a diaper and a t-shirt.

“Thanks mom.” She quietly said, crawling into bed.

“You’re welcome darling. Sleep tight” Sally said as she hugged her girl gave her rear a pat through the bedspread.

That night, shortly after snuggling down in bed, Jordan wriggled free from her shorts, kicking them off in bed. The sensation of her slick diaper sliding against her covers felt inexplicably good. The girl with the secret slept the rest of the night in just her bare purple diaper and a t-shirt; she reasoned to herself it’s just to make it easier in the morning for mom.